What am I doing now?

Mindfulness is hard. My mind is a jerk and that's putting it super mildly. But that's only when it's trying to punish me. Bouncing around up there are millions of toxic thoughts mixed with loads of other awesome stuff; but I can't always access the awesome stuff and am left sifting through all the awful shit.

So that's what I'm doing now. I'm trying to reprogram this thing so I can be in control 100% of the time. So I can file away all the awful shit and just run the functioning programs; and maybe even find some new software along the way that will help. 

That's where DBT comes into play. 

I have to learn how to deal with the bad days when the bad thoughts take over and I can't access the good. I have to learn how to use the DBT skills when all I can seem to open are these old corrupt files loaded with junk that fills me with pain. DBT skills can help.
"Mindfulness is the underpinning of DBT."
"It’s like a muscle- you have to train it"
"Train your brain to shut up."
Try this
https://youtu.be/Hw7rmdITCFs